However, I believe there is another layer under that paper. Under the harsh accounting of life is the accounting of Grace. From Grace and Heart I can see possibility. This is the possibility that the numbers are not defining me and my life. It is possible that deserve is not part of the equation. There is the possibility that I am intrinsically full of value and that there is nothing wrong with me. There is the possibility that with out the idea of "deserve" I don't have to suffer under the judgement of the balance sheet.
Freedom is a possibility and bondage is a possibility.....I can choose what I want to experience because its a matter of choice. This choice has been the most amazing experiment of my life. Surely I labored under the bondage of judgement for most of my life; until the question was posed to me. If i can choose to have the life experience of possibility and of freedom from judgement; why not???
The most awesome result of this whole choice is that what applies to me applies to all...... If "deserve" isn't in my equation then it isn't in anybody's equation. No one has to prove their worth to me. Everyone is whole. Everyone is in. We are all in the community of Heart and Grace.
What do I deserve? What do we all deserve? We all deserve freedom from deserve!
Wondering what all this has to do with Yoga? Svadhyaya........