"Opening to grace" is a concept that has been presented by my Anusara yoga teachers over the years. The practice of yoga is practice for life so it makes sense that a cornerstone in the practice would be grace. For most of my life I felt unworthy of grace. I believed that someone had to prove through excellent living that they were good enough to receive the grace the universe had to offer......and I was certainly never good enough. How ironic that the solution to a graceless life is to open myself up to grace......Way too simple! But by the time I landed on a yoga mat, I had long given up on proving myself good and worthy and had decided to just try to be of service. Miraculously, I was then free to accept the grace that was available to me. Hallelujah!
To be open to grace from the universe means that in any moment I am not alone as a human being in the world. Through grace I am connected to all that is. Due to grace, I can completely accept all that is. Due to grace, there can be ease in living no matter what life brings. With grace, I can connect to my fellow beings no matter what they are doing or how they are being. Without grace I am a separate, disconnected, dissatisfied individual.....and life gets smaller and smaller.
Life has a way of bringing us to places where we will grab a hold of a bit more grace in order to meet those challenges.
Today is February 6.
This has been and will continue to be a day of more grace for me and my family. I will forever be grateful for the outpouring of universal grace that flooded down upon us at the moment Dennis and I laid eyes on our stillborn baby. We loved her no less that any of our children at that moment and still; yet we were required by life, to surrender her. We were bestowed acceptance and peace.....without even deserving it. ( We are just regular people who have faults and make plenty of mistakes) It was surprising and not surprising how that grace appeared and that it was sufficient.
I will forever be grateful for the outpouring of grace that flooded to us by our community, family and friends.....heart to heart. Not the least of whom was a total stranger; a funeral home manager who took care of us personally..... I will never forget his kindness and generosity. I am grateful for all the sweetness expressed from Dennis and my children to me at this time each year.....we all experienced this life event and all have our own experience of it and yet they are sure to express concern for me. This expression of grace one with another is particularly sweet to me.
Today I hang, outside my bedroom window, the 6th wind chime....... for Isabel. Every time I hear those tinkling sounds outside my window I feel a bit of sorrow, a bit of longing and a lot of grace.