It's been almost 3 months since I've written....... last night I was at a dinner party and the conversation turned to a subject that reminded me about this blog. We were discussing Facebook: pros, cons, flaws,etc.... I related to the group that I had been writing and posting and sharing on facebook but that I had stopped...suddenly ......and that I was unclear about what had happened. I did note, however, that I had downloaded a weebly app on my phone and that it had been popping up my stats....you know, how many hits my blog was getting..... I had to be honest and admit that I began to care more and more how many hits I was getting. Then, because I was suspicious, I looked up-- on google-- what these "hits" actually mean. I discovered that there are these "automated searchers" going on (for reasons that are beyond my understanding) around the web and inflate the "hit" number because they aren't actually humans looking (so they couldn't actually be reading my blog). Basically, I got a bit caught up in evaluating my "success"..... and I think it felt yucky. The therapist at the table confirmed this.
The writer at the table said the dry spells happen to everyone and that what I need to do is just sit down and write.
Taking both theories into account I've decided that they are both valid. So, today I begin again and make a solemn oath that I shall not care about how many hits my app reports to me and that I will remain true to my intention.
I initially said that I believe in the goodness of humankind and that as we all discover our true nature we will access our connectedness and our current boundaries of what we think is possible will stretch.... stretch out until they are so thin that they break apart entirely. I believe in us......in all of us. I believe in possibility. I believe that the core and true nature of each human is the key to expansion....expansion of compassion, inclusion, nurture, love and peace. I will not give up on this.....no matter how few people I reach. As I make my offering, I believe that it matters.
I recently saw a short film in the movie theater about the earth. It was a piece narrated by the earth and the earth was saying to humans that they need the earth more than the earth needs humans. It struck me that neither needs the other less than the other. It reminded me that we humans need each other in that same way.......none of us is more important or valuable than the other.....between all of us; we can thrive.
I cannot explain the optimism I feel ..... I have been told I oversimplify things.......
I'm just going to keep saying it anyway.
The writer at the table said the dry spells happen to everyone and that what I need to do is just sit down and write.
Taking both theories into account I've decided that they are both valid. So, today I begin again and make a solemn oath that I shall not care about how many hits my app reports to me and that I will remain true to my intention.
I initially said that I believe in the goodness of humankind and that as we all discover our true nature we will access our connectedness and our current boundaries of what we think is possible will stretch.... stretch out until they are so thin that they break apart entirely. I believe in us......in all of us. I believe in possibility. I believe that the core and true nature of each human is the key to expansion....expansion of compassion, inclusion, nurture, love and peace. I will not give up on this.....no matter how few people I reach. As I make my offering, I believe that it matters.
I recently saw a short film in the movie theater about the earth. It was a piece narrated by the earth and the earth was saying to humans that they need the earth more than the earth needs humans. It struck me that neither needs the other less than the other. It reminded me that we humans need each other in that same way.......none of us is more important or valuable than the other.....between all of us; we can thrive.
I cannot explain the optimism I feel ..... I have been told I oversimplify things.......
I'm just going to keep saying it anyway.
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