Consequently, I have been surprised lately to discover that I have been narrowing my experience of life with "limiting beliefs". These beliefs were gently pointed out to me lately by a couple of people with whom I've been doing some spiritual work. The real gift for me was that when it came up, though my first reaction was to protest, I actually listened and entertained the possibility of the truth of the matter.......I had to admit that I had been believing that if I wanted to discover my life rather than plan it, I had no say in it.
I thought I had made great strides when I got over the whole concept of DESERVE.... and I did. But right under that was a layer of resignation..I know better that to wallow in resignation so I had it cloaked in some other more palatable words.....I looked inside and had to be honest...it was there. I wondered aloud how am I going to sort this all out? I've been SO committed to letting go of MY ideas and discovering all that life IS.
"The key", she said to me, "is balance". It was is if these words had never been presented to me before (yet surely they have) and I had one of those moments of clarity that makes everything look possible.
Buddha taught that every understanding is like a boat used to cross a river.... It is only useful to cross that river.....one must be willing to then get out of that boat and move on .
My clinging so strongly to one aspect of living fully and free in the universe had brought me out of balance in another area. It is time for me to get out of that boat and see how to put that experience into the larger picture....to allow it to be one piece of the puzzle-----not the whole puzzle.
My new mantra..... Nothing in my life is totally right or wrong, I choose balance, I choose my wisdom, I choose my power, I choose abundance now.