Throughout the class I sent her my positive energy and my hopes that she would get what she needed from being there..... I'm always glad to be near people who are new to yoga because I'm so glad that I found it; I look for opportunities to help attract them into a practice that has helped me so much. Often newcomers try so hard and I try to send some "easy does it" energy. This one was trying hard.
After about 45 minutes of standing poses with flow, some arm balancing and handstands at the wall, we were in Pigeon prep. she let out a long sigh. I couldn't hold my words back and whispered to her "all the hard stuff is over". She sighed a long sigh of relief and I said to myself in my head ........unless you are back bending; that is still coming!
Back bending is still hard for me....I'm not sure if it will ever get easy, so even though I practice it every time it is instructed. I always think about skipping it; the way I used to. Before I was able to do Upward Facing Bow, I practiced Bridge instead. I always have that conversation in my head about how maybe today, since I'm tired, I'll skip the hard stuff that comes after all the hard stuff.
I'm at a similar point in life. I've been married to Dennis for 20 years. We've been through all the growing pains of our relationship and have arrived at a comfortable rhythm. Although we still have plenty of children at home, 4 of them are in or entering adulthood and I no longer feel that the children outnumber the adults. Dennis and I have been through all the figuring out of how to join our living and parenting styles; we've done all the demanding physical work of having brand new babies and all the sleepless nights. We've been through all the toddlers and tantrums and and their unending need to explore. Its been 3 years since we've had one in diapers. Only 3 are left in elementary school and I feel at this point that all the hard stuff is over now.
Unless I choose to go for the back bending
I don't even know what in this whole world could be coming.......possibly some great challenges or maybe the temptation to become disconnected. Although I may have the conversation in my head about skipping whatever hard stuff that comes after all the hard stuff, I know I'm going to go for it...... Just like the back bend I'm going to do in practice today.